Jerry 悠光 Kirsch

It’s 3 am. Just spent the last 4 hours at Emily’s. I carefully let her do her homework. She asked me, “If there’s anything you want me to stop, tell me”. I obliged. I told her I was foreseeing myself feeling disrespected if she kept showing up late to our hangouts. I told her that I dislike it when people call me out to do something, then show up so late that I waited for nothing. The conversation evolved into deep thinking strategies for people who struggle with change.

Just went to the other room during my break in studying to grab my keyboard duster. I was repeatedly squeezing the thing, making squeaking noises when I stopped. I just said aloud;”this doesn’t really matter”. I looked at the cracks of the keyboard, and there was just so much dust in there that I didn’t want to clean it anymore. The dust showed me how much I had really used this laptop, and how there was so much buildup just too small to see without looking closely.